2013, you have been really good to me and for that, I thank you immensely. I have had so many good days and experiences that I never even knew would happen. Like that time I challenged myself to get over my fear of heights in Rockville, Maryland.
Or the best birthday I have ever experienced in Mexico.
And my engagement! Woot! Woot!
But there have been some difficult times too. Times I felt broken. Defeated. And times I felt unsure of myself and who I was as a woman outside of my relationship, who I was as a friend, and who I hoped to become. I didn’t know what I wanted out of life. Scratch that. I did. I’ve always known, but it took me time to realize that I needed to make sacrifices to get it even though others thought it would hurt my relationship. It took me time to realize that my dream doesn’t have to be some unobtainable goal that sits on a floating pedestal in my mind. I can have it and I will have it all if I claim it for myself and keep working towards it.
I didn’t always know this. Everywhere I turn, people are just doing what they have to do rather than what they want to do. It’s seems easier to follow the routine rather than work for what they want and I completely get it. It’s rough out here, but I thank you anyway. Thank you for teaching me the importance of setting goals and working for what I want. For staying true to my dream even though there were many times I didn’t know if it was in the cards for me. And thank you for giving me options like this blog that I never considered before, but am happy it exists for dreamers like me.
Thank you for helping me find relationships in the most unlikely of places like a train ride to Delaware. And through a blog site where I have become good friends with the owner even though we have only spoken a couple times in person before I stumbled upon her site. That same girl who offered to do a vision board party with me when I told her how sad, confused and frustrated with the course that my life had taken. The one who still motivates me to be the writer I hope to be. I thank you so so much that and for changing me from the “I don’t need friends because I have a big family” girl to “how did I ever manage with that attitude” girl. I look forward to new relationships in the New Year.
I thank you for teaching me the importance of allowing a higher power to work in my life. Before this year, I tried to make everything work on my own and honestly, nothing worked. But as soon as I stepped back and really gave God the wheel, I was able to stop stressing about money. The checks I had once waited to arrive came on time. I was basically handed a job that I had no experience in at all because somebody knew somebody that passed off my resume. I am still amazed how it all worked out. Thank you.
I thank you for teaching me the importance of letting go of things that no longer make me happy. I have to admit, I am still struggling with this idea, but you’ve taught me to do what’s best for me and I will always remember that.
Thank you for helping me adopt a new-found sense of appreciation of all the seemingly small details that pertains to my life, love and happiness. I am so grateful.
Twenty Thirteen, thank you for breaking and strengthening me, enlightening and motivating me to become a better version of myself. You taught me well and I can’t wait to see what 2014 has in store for me.