A Beautiful Storm

WomanhoodShe was a beautiful storm
Dressed in layers of tulle
Searching for her voice
Fighting for power
Constant state of push and pull
Pull back
Too close for comfort
Push forward
Always onward
Dancing queen
Twirling like a spinning top on concrete
Faster
Faster
Faster
Slooooooooowly
Unraveling at the seams
Tequila and sprite
Shots all around
Weekend after weekend
Happiness unfound

She was a beautiful storm
Tearing through life
Like twisters slash though farms
Ripping away roofs with words that sting
Each turn
Increased wind
Heart
bump-bump
bump-bump
bump-bumping
Head in the clouds
Body bound
To cement
Dreams
What could be
Regret
What could have been
Am I
Disappointing
Husband?

WomanhoodShe was a beautiful storm
Wide flailing arms
Category 5
Unstill
Trying to survive
A lying life
Feigning
Happy
All the while
Clutching
Optimism, left hand
Repeating
Insanity, writing hand
Constantly
Searching
For a stable foundation
On which to stand

She was a beautiful storm
Lost in vision boards
Group chats
And positive affirmations
Searching for imaginative signs
From the one who rules her holy nation
Complex ain’t even the word
To describe her free-flowing soul
Always
Keeping her lens on the ultimate goal
Breaking down stereotypes
Carrying the burdens of a sacrificial lamb
Rightfully disguised as another woman
I can
I will
I am
She repeats as she conquers
Each day
Ugly, bad and good
Every Opportunity
Missed, Achieved
Stumbling through
Womanhood

WomanhoodShe was a beautiful storm
Cultivating light
Thunder
And air
Moving earth
With each switch of the hip
Flip of her hair
Serving a heaping on God’s plates
Casting prayers over the Hudson
Blind faith
Head Up
Back Straight
Planted on two
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
For all that you do
Will do
And have done
For sacrificing your only begotten son
For every trial
Tribulation
And now appreciation
For it is through you love that her healing is born
She was a beautiful storm