I will admit it, I am prideful.
Too often, I would rather do it alone and struggle than ask for help when I clearly need it. I realized this during a conversation with a close friend about wanting to create my blog. At the time, I didn’t have the money for the fees and wasn’t sure when I would feel secure doing it when my money had been so funny. She very bluntly told me I just need to suck it up, borrow money and stop being ridiculous because in many ways, I was holding myself back. Her reasoning was that if I continue to prolong it with my current employment situation, I may not be able to afford it for 5 more months or years. She explained that during that time, I could do so much for myself and for my blog.
Today, I was talking to my bus driver about a situation that happened at work last week and how frustrated it made me. I also mentioned that I was informed about a vacant position that day that outsiders were already applying to and I was just learning about. I told him that I didn’t want to apply to the position because I wasn’t sure if I wanted to stay with the company. He very nicely told me that my pride was getting in the way and I should apply because it would allow me to write and also expand my portfolio because of another component to the position.
I have to give it to him, he raised some valid points and it really made me think.
If I am allowing my pride to get in the way of things I say I want, what else is it getting in the way of?