I have been so lazy lately. It’s okay, I can admit it.
Thursday morning, I knew I had to do something about it when my alarm went off and instead of jumping up and heading to the dining room so that I could write a post, I laid back down. It was only for a couple of minutes, but the whole point of not sleeping with my phone in the bed or near it for that matter, is to force me to get up.
I also forgot to do my morning routine of listing the things I am grateful for. When I realized it, I had a long talk with myself. I said “Yaszy, get it together.” No not really, but I did have a heart-to-heart of sorts with myself.
I called me out on my stuff acknowledging that I have been slacking. And being sick the week before is not an excuse because I am better now. I also told myself that as much as I wanted to get a couple more minutes of sleep, I also want to build a good blog. I want to build one that I can be proud of. One where I am more confident in the content and my voice for the blog. More than anything, I want to realize my dream and I won’t be able to do that if the only thing I am concerned with is catching Zzzzs. Am I right?
I couldn’t help but think about that conversation later that day when I was at work. One of the customers was telling me what he does and as usual, I was gassing it telling him how important it sounds. He was totally not interested or phased by my excitement. It was written all over his face and in his tone that “it’s just a job.” I asked him if he could choose his job what would it be. He said a writer! I had to high five him on that one. He told me he was working on a book and it’s almost finished. The plot sounds really interesting and I would honestly read it.
As he walked away, I realized that had he asked me what I would do if I could choose, I would say the same exact thing. I would write. And as quick as I realized that, it dawned on me that I already was, but I wasn’t doing enough to grow as a writer. I wasn’t sacrificing as much as I should and I want to, but more importantly, I need to.
This, I hope will be the beginning of me blogging Monday through Friday, again. Wish me luck!
